Today I was inspired by another fellow Chick, DEBBIE KHO, who wrote a brilliant testimony about our Chicks Connect group, “The Early Bird Chicks”. So, as a woman with a new-found passion for writing, I naturally just had to say something of my own….
When I first came to Chicks as a visitor because my best friend of 38 years, Denise Wetherell, begged me for the thousandth time to at least check it out, I finally gave in and thought to myself, “Oh well ok, what do I have to lose?” I went into the meeting mainly because of her. I was out of excuses for her. It’s one of those things where I just had to surrender, because nothing else was working in my life. I was broken spiritually, depressed (and I wanted you to know it), had no job, had used up all of my savings just living, had no direction or goals for a future. My immediate family didn’t live close by and I had no real friends, (other than Denise of course, who is family) and I was very skeptical about coming to a meeting where I just knew there would be a bunch of amazing, successful women sitting around talking about how great their businesses were and supporting one another in those businesses. Over the last 20 years, I have had many ideas for what I wanted to do if I ever started a business of my own, yet, I kept telling myself, “You’re not a business woman.”
I have learned many things since that faithful day of walking into my Chicks Connect meeting. This is not solely a “bunch of amazing women sitting around talking about how great their businesses are and supporting one another in those businesses.” Yes, these women are in fact amazing, just as I had suspected, true story. However, what I didn’t know at the time, was that these people weren’t all women business owners just there to network, to try and sell me something and then move on. Not everyone in the room even owned a business. Some women were stay-at-home-mommies (the hardest job in the world I’ve been told and don’t doubt), some were corporate career women (which is what I had been previously). Many women were in some form of transition in their lives and others had full time jobs/careers and sold products on the side for fun and to earn extra income.
No, these women were not here to try and pressure me to purchase a widget I knew I would never use then walk out the door and never see me again. They were here to sell me a dream. That dream was that one day I would have the self confidence to be able to say, “I CAN be a business owner if I WANT to be one. I CAN do whatever it is I want to do. I can BE whoever it is I want to be. I AM a beautiful, intelligent, successful, kind, generous, thoughtful and passionate woman with an infinite amount of options and opportunities available to me if I only reach out and pick one.” It was suggested by one of the ladies in my Chick Chapter, “The only thing you need to try now is to make a CHOICE for what you want to do, even if it’s wrong. You can always change later.”
Well, today I’ve made that choice. I will no longer live in fear. Fear of success, fear of failure, fear of not being strong/pretty/smart/talented enough, fear of financial insecurity, fear of loneliness and ultimately, the fear of death.
I struggle to think of what my life would be like today if I hadn’t taken that bold leap of faith of coming to my first Chicks meeting. I thank God that I did and thank my BFF, Denise for the gentle “push”. When I purchased my membership, not knowing how I was going to pay for it, I didn’t realize at the time that what I was actually purchasing, was my life.
Today I am living my passion as an Apparel Designer due to finally making that choice to start my business, “Wheeler Works”.
Today, I also have a full-time job that I love. Although that particular job doesn’t pay all the bills, I know that I can keep striving for one that will eventually. I’ve learned that it’s time to stop living in fear of not finding the perfect job and go out and FIND that perfect job! I am once again, making it a career to find the perfect career again. Please don’t get me wrong, it’s not ALL about the money, (although I do enjoy getting paid to be a member of Chicks and bringing in more Chicks, tee hee). I don’t need very many “things”. I’ve had an abundance of “things” in the past that I thought I loved. The problem was, they didn’t love me back. I am happy as long as I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, I’m pursuing my dreams and have true, everlasting, wonderful relationships with many amazing women (myself included) who I can call my family.
Today, I’m surrounded by countless loving members of Chicks Connect who all support me in the decisions I make in my life, no matter what. They help guide me towards making wise decisions and hold me up when the decisions I do make don’t produce the outcome I initially desired. I’ve learned that I care about other women and want to try and help them with whatever they are going through as much as they’ve helped me.
Today, my spirituality has kicked into high gear, I have learned to love myself and now strive to remain the proud woman I knew I always was but just kept hidden.
I am forever grateful to you all, my new family, dearest sweet “Chickadees”!